Honest Hesitancy

To know what is required to avoid a sin,
Regarding the sacrifice involved to begin,
The misleading reward of simplicity in life,
Have I carefully decided to not find a wife?
The tempting complicated life is alluring,
It would be nice if love was a sure thing,
I just hope to one day to understand,
Honesty hesitancy & I do what I can,
To recognize a destructive train of thought,
As I overcome thinking to says what it’s not,
A hope within the end; life being kind,
Open to letting go of rigid thinking I find,
Maybe right now is just not my time,
I’ll let go of the idea that anything is mine.