My Options

Once again, thinking of what to do,
My options as the day moves through,
Collected info for a knowledgeable stance,
I don’t know what to do to break this trance,
So I’ll think less to be who I am,
Letting pity pass by, for true faith to begin,
Am I looking for a search to believe?
If so, for what, when perception can deceive,
My lost capability to encourage & be kind,
Within an understanding in the mind,
Selection in seven billion people to give to,
Yet a day to day life to live through,
While a mental illness verges to heal me,
God & the devil, play games for all to see.