Optimistic Struggle

Do I know how things really are?
The feelings inside are rather bizarre,
A time when two perspectives interact,
I find I’m unaware how to act,
Wanting things to happen beautifully,
If it doesn’t happen, do I take it personally?
Feeling I should have control of this,
Wanting to feel I can make a difference,
Does this limit my vision?
The good intentions in a decision,
It was the best I knew how to do,
The optimistic struggle I’ll go through,
Just move with the flow,
Just trust and let go.