It Never Was

Seemingly the situation is carefully planned,
Expected routines die; spontaneity banned,
Thinking things a certain way ruins them,
Logic escapes when eleven follows ten,
After eleven is twelve; from point to point,
To count the cash or count the coins,
Rehearsed or reversed, life should be alive,
Not knowing if today is the day I die,
It is always now, but that’s not new,
At least this time I know what to do,
A form of structure is necessary, sure,
I just don’t want to ever be this bored,
The moment is here, what should I do?
Pretend it never was, so it can be new.